An explanation :the act of giving details about something or reasons for something.

So I need to explain a few things. The main thing is my decision to move out of Napa.

So let’s begin. I’m moving on in my life. Moving on from old feelings and trying to put it all behind me. I’ve learned my lesson. I will not repeat past mistakes. I feel as if I’m “out growing” my skin….and this town. I need to experience more in my life, more experiences to help me on the journey of self discovery. Everything that has happened up to this point has shaped me into the man I am now. I would not change a single thing. It has all happened for reason’s unknown, but I don’t need to know. I just need to experience a new life for me and my little girl. I feel like moving from Napa is the right thing to do at this point in my life. I don’t want to see anyone…not in a bad way. Please don’t take it that way…I just want to distance myself from people, this town and this routine I know too well. I need to not be hurt anymore. I need to be the rock I want to be and get on with my life. I’ll face the facts, in fact I stare them in the eye’s everyday. My hopes & faiths in people have been misguided. As unfortunate as that my be, it’s ok. The path of rediscovery sometimes takes you that way. Every day is a fight for me.

"Reconcile to the relief
consumed in sacred ground for me
there wasn't always a place to go
but there was always an urgent need to belong

all these bands and
all these people
all these friends and
we were equals but
what you gonna do
when everybody goes on without you?”

That’s on a loop in my head every second of every day.

“With another victory, I pass right under the sun, my war is over but a new one has begun.”

I’m ready to win again. I’m the winning team & if you don’t want to be apart of that, I understand. Actually I don’t but I don’t need too. Any of you can think what you will about my decisions, thoughts or actions. I don’t really care. I need to do what’s right for me.

I will say my good bye’s soon enough.

Until then,

-j

Old song I forgot about. Check it. It’s a good expression of how I feel. It’s great how music can do that...expresses things I have a difficult time expressing.

Hope you enjoy.