Friday morning.

Hello.

Today is going to be long.

I'm going to delete my myspace. I don't need it anymore. I'm also out of this town. I'm going to move...nothing is here for me anymore. I will figure out what to do with the kid.

This town is only a reminder of every fault I repent.

Today I'm going somewhere. I dont know where. but somewhere far.

Two songs for today w/ lyrics.

The background.



Everything is quiet, Since you're not around,
And I live in the numbness now.
In the background.
I do the things we did before,
I walk Haight Street to the store,
And they say where's that crazy girl?
You don't get drunk on red wine, And fight no more,
I don't see you anymore,
Since the hospital,
The plans I make still have you in them,
Cause you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
I only know because I carry you around,
In the background.
I'm in the background

Words they come and memories all repeat,
Lift your head while they change the hospital sheets,
I would never lie to you, No
I would never lie to you, No
I felt you long after we were through.
When we were through

The plans I make still have you in them,
Cause you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
I only know because I carry you around,
In the background.

Cause I felt you long after we were through.

When you come swimming into view,
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do,
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you,
I only know because I'm way, I'm way,
In the background,
I'm in the background

AND

God of Wine.



Every thought that I repent,
There's another chip you haven't spent,
And you're cashing them all in,
Where do we begin. To get clean again,
Can we get clean again.
I walk home alone with you, And the mood you're born into,
Sometimes you let me in, And I take it on the chin.
I can't get clean again. I want to know, Can we get clean again,
The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car
that, took you farther than you thought you'd ever want to go,
We can't get back again, We can't get back again

She takes a drink and then she waits,
The alcohol it permeates,
And soon the cells give way, And cancels out the day.

I can't keep it all together
(It's been all (or "It's the world)......Stuck underneath the moon),
I know I know I know I know I know I know I know...I can't keep it all together
(It's been all......Stuck underneath the moon).
And the siren's song that is your madness,
Holds a truth I can't erase, All alone on your face.

Every glamorous sunrise, Throws the planets out of line,
A star sign out of whack, A fraudulent zodiac.
And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room,
You let me down, I said it,
Now I'm going down, you're not even around.
And I said no no no no no no no no no...

I can't keep it all together,
(It's been all......Stuck underneath the moon),
I know I know I know I know I know I know I know...I can't keep it all together,
(It's been all......Stuck underneath the moon),
And there's a memory of a window, Looking through I see you.
Searching for something, I could never give you,
There's someone who understands you more than I do.
A sadness I can't erase. All alone on your face.


Have a safe new year.

-j.