Alvie.

Hello & welcome to my blog.

Anything discussed here is for my sanity. An outlet some would call it. I do not wish to offend nor anger anyone but this is mine. And I will say what I want.

Today I'm feeling good. Trying to keep the mind fresh and focused. Letting go of my.....expectations and moving with time. I’m not letting myself to over think things or allow it to go into dark thoughts world. I need to stay positive and remember life is on my side. To be open and ready for good things to come (hopefully good things).

Last night I was left a note from a girl who lives in the apartment complex I live in. She asked me if I was interested in getting dinner sometime. Nick spent sometime attempting to convince me it’s a good idea. I don’t think so. I think it send’s the wrong message if I were to do so and I don’t need/want to get dinner with anyone. I want to heal myself, heal my relationship with Michelle & get back on track with Lily. I just need to stay focused on my goals.

John’s Goals:

1. Get help to stay in the positive frame of mind. I need to “re-wire” my hard drive to process & handle situations differently. My reactions to things aren’t good at all. I need to change!!
2. Get help with my feeling’s about the accident. It’s still something I think about often.
3. Deal with a lot of the issues brought on by childhood.
4. Hopefully repair my relationship with Michelle. I know god had us find each other for a reason.

Today’s song of the day is Alive by POD. This song is really helping me to stay focused & feel good about myself.



Be safe & I love you all.

Peace,

John.
AKA The Inferno.