Cue the pretty piano.

So i wait on progress but nothing happens at all. And I wait on unknowing where my life's gonna fall. Then I rose. I've seen firefly's. Will that keep you alive?

Where do you go? Where have you been? Where are you now? When will this end? I'm burning inside. I can't sleep at night, My heart is on fire. I know that somethings not right.

So I talk to my & a lovers say's "Why do you haft to go away?" These days don't make sense. I feel like I'm lost again, yet again. I might have made mistakes in the past but now theirs dust on the glass. & My lips are dry. I see the light I feel fine. I see your light but you don't shine.

Where do you go? Where have you been? Where are you now? When will this end? I'm burning inside. I can't sleep at night, My heart is on fire. I know that somethings not right.

no titles right now.

Like I said before.

...lonesomeness is a bitch.

I ordered myself a pizza and a salad. Nothing fancy but its low key like me.

So I'm watching some show called Surface. Its about a sea monster or some shit. I don't know. I'm just trying to pass the time.

Getting ready to give Lily a bath, then bed time.

Then I will consume some adult beverages. Nothing too much but a few wont hurt.

-j

Song of the evening.

Phoenix - Long Distance Call.



Where to go I had no idea
26.10 was the price to pay
A messed up kid with no ideals at all
I thought those 26.10 I shouldn't give'em away

I remember this young guy died and I took his part He got far too many stitches on his pretty face Long time to see but I always thought us two would be serious I was looking around town, thinking the same as you

I'm far gone but your long distance call And your capital letters keep me asking for more

It's never been like that
It's never been like that

I'm far gone but your long distance call And your capital letters keep me asking for more

Where to go I had no idea about it
Most of the people do, there're only doing just fine I don't wanna stay in place no more, see Ain't doing well well well, I am only doing just fine

long time no see, long time no say
Got little to tell, I don't say much but I might Something always told me us two would be serious I am looking around town, thinking the same as you

I'm far gone but your long distance call And your capital letters keep me asking for more

It's never been like that
It's never been like that

I'm far gone but your long distance call And your capital letters keep me asking for more

Long time no see... Long time no say...

Umm......

Hello,

Anyone listening to the USA vs Canada game?? Man its a really good hockey game. DAMN USA almost just tied the game up man a great save from Canada. Shit.

Going to spend the New Year alone. Well Lily will be here. Other than that I will ring in the New Year by myself. Sucks but worse has happened.

Well you all be safe! don't drink & drive!

Happy New Year Y'all!

-j

And I wanted to be

Well it's all in your mind
It's all in your mind
Well it's all in your mind

And I wanted to be
I wanted to be
Wanted to be your good friend

Well I cannot believe
You got a devil up your sleeve
And he's talking to me
And I cannot believe

And I wanted to be
I wanted to be your good friend

You're all scared and stiff
A sick stolen gift
And the people you're with
They're all scared and stiff

And I wanted to be

Guess I'm Doing Fine

There’s a blue bird at my window
I can’t hear the songs he sings
All the jewels in heaven
They don’t look the same to me

I just wade the tides that turned
Till I learn to leave the past behind

It’s only lies that I’m living
It’s only tears that I’m crying
It’s only you that I’m losing
Guess I’m doing fine

All the battlements are empty
And the moon is laying low
Yellow roses in the graveyard
Got no time to watch them grow

Now I bade a friend farewell
I can do whatever pleases me

It’s only lies that I’m living
It’s only tears that I’m crying
It’s only you that I’m losing
Guess I’m doing fine

Press my face up to the window
To see how warm it is inside
See the things that I’ve been missing
Missing all this time

It’s only lies that I’m living
It’s only tears that I’m crying
It’s only you that I’m losing
Guess I’m doing fine

Tuesday.

Hello,

I'm really tired today. Work is slow & I keep falling asleep. LOL.

Anyone been paying attention to the World Juniors hockey?? Team USA is undefeated right now. They are going up against Canada tomorrow, I will hopefully watch it. It will be a tight battle. GO TEAM USA!!

I'm worried about someone I love very much. She's going threw a lot right now; I wish there was something I can do to help her/protect her from all of this. Sadly there’s nothing at all. I don’t even think she will turn to me for support. She has new people to turn too. Gym buddies or whatever. She and her parents deserve a lot more from a certain person. To see such good people go threw all of this is uncalled for and a fucking shame. They are such amazing people and they are family to me.

But I'm not family anymore. Makes me sad; breaks my heart really.

Tonight is going to be busy. Eric is in town and I'm going to go hang with him. I'm excited to see him. I can foresee a lot of drinks being had.

Take care everyone.

-j

This is a band most people hate but this song is amazing. Do me a favor; close your eyes & just listen to the lyrics.