Find the meaning in the moment.

It's time to weed out the weak, do away with their lives
I see it so clear now, through my open eyes
Stood by your side, you put a knife in my back
Never ever thought it'd be you who would do me like that
But we live and we learn, or so it's said
One thing about you, I can't wait till you're dead
The mistakes I've made won't happen again
Keep my enemies closer than I keep my friends

It's got me fucked up, I just can't let it go
Will we ever be the same? Well my answer is no
Think about your death every goddamn day
Wanna know what I think? This is what I must say
I say we line 'em all up, then we gun 'em all down
Then we all celebrate when they all hit the ground
Don't wake up now, it's gonna be too late
Don't give me that shit about cleaning the slate
You've been at it too long, all your life that I've checked
Now your time's almost up with a noose on your neck
Smile in my face, better watch your back
Two-faced motherfucker gets both jaws cracked

Great expectations, we had the greatest expectations

Mary, this station is playing every sad song.
I remember like we were alive.
I heard it Sunday morn' from inside of these walls.
In a prison cell, where we spent those nights.
And they burnt up the diner where I always used to find her.
Licking young boys blood from her claws.
And I learned about the blues from this kitten I knew.
Her hair was rabid and her heart was like a tomb.
My heart's like a wound.

I saw daylights last night and I dreamed about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw daylights last night and I dreamed about my whole life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

Mary, I worried and stalled every night of my life.
Better safe than making the party.
And I never had a good time, I sat my bedside, with papers and poetry about Astella.
Great expectations, we had the greatest expectations

I saw daylights last night and In a dream about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw daylights last night and I dreamed about my whole life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

It's funny how the night moves.
Humming a song from 1962.
We were always waiting... always waiting.
We were always waiting for something to happen.

I saw daylights last night and In a dream about my first wife.
Everybody leaves and I'd expect as much from you.
I saw daylights last night and I dreamed about my whole life.
Everybody leaves, so why, why wouldn't you?

Today I feel horrible about everything.

Had my first panic attack in a long time, I also haven’t taken my meds in a few days. Ran out & can’t afford to get refills. Shit I can’t afford anything right now. Rent, Daycare, living, anything. I can’t even afford to go to the doctor to get me knee, jaw & ear fixed.

I’m so beyond fucked but it’s my fault. I bit off more than I can chew & have no one to turn to for help. I’m too embarrassed to talk to anyone, to ask advice...anything.

I simply don’t know what to do.

I just want to crawl in a hole & die. That’s it.

Never to be seen again.

Have a good fracking afternoon John.

yesterday.

I thought I saw you yesterday but I didn't stop cuz you was walkin' the opposite way.
I guess I coulda' shouted out your name but even if it was you I don't know what I would say.
We could sit and reminesce about the old school. Maybe share a cigarette cuz were both fools. Chop it up and compare perspectives.
Life, love, stress and setbacks yes.
You could tell me how hard you had it. And you can show me all the scars to back it. And we can analyze each complaint. Break it down and explain these mistakes I make.
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry but you knew me back when I was a younger me.
You've seen John in all types of light and I've been meanin' to ask you if I'm doin' alright.

Yesterday was that you? Looked just like you. Strange things my imagination might do.
Take a breathe, reflect on what we've been through or am I goin' crazy cuz I miss you?
Yesterday was that you? Looked just like you. Strange things my imagination might do.
Take a breathe, reflect on what we've been through or am I goin' crazy cuz I miss you?

I'm shook, I know. I pushed when I shoulda' pulled. Took it all back if I could. I put that on my soul.
And I would make a top-notch good listener and keep the block off a little time to give it here.
Since we went our seperate paths I've hit a couple of snags that remind me of the past. I can't front, I'm having a blast. But damned if I ain't afraid of how long it's gonna last. Sittin' here wishin' we could kick it. Givin' me your opinions. I do miss the criticisms.
I didn't mean to be distant. Make a visit. I wait up and keep the coffee brewin' in the kitchen.
But who am I jokin' with? There's no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it.
It doesn't matter this is more than love and maybe if I'm lucky get to see you out the corner of...

Yesterday was that you? Looked just like you. Strange things my imagination might do. Take a breathe, reflect on what we've been through or am I just goin' crazy cuz I miss you?
Yesterday was that you? Looked just like you. Strange things my imagination might do. Take a breathe, reflect on what we've been through or am I just goin' crazy cuz I miss you?

And when you left I didn't see it coming. I guess I slept. It ain't like you was runnin. You crept out the front door slow and I was so self absorbed I didn't even know. And by the time I looked up it was booked up. Put it all behind you the bad and the good stuff.
A whole house full of dreams and steps. I think you'd be impressed with the pieces I kept. You disappeared but the history is still here. That's why I try not to cry over spilled beer. I can't even get mad that you gone. Leavin' me was probably the best thing you ever taught me.
I'm sorry.
It's official.
I was a fist-full.
I didn't keep it simple.
Chip on the shoulder. Anger in my veins. Has so much hatred now it brings me shame. Never thought about the world without you and I promise that I'll never say another bad word about you.
I thought I saw you yesterday.

Looked just like you. Strange things my imagination might do. Take a breathe, reflect on what we've been through. Or am I just goin crazy cuz I miss you?

if i get any more stressed I'm going to vomit all over myself then collect said vomit & coke on it.

till i die.

the end.

But I'd rather be working for a paycheck, Than waiting to win the lottery.

This is the first day of my life
Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain, suddenly everything changed
They're spreading blankets on the beach

Yours was the first face that I saw
I think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am, I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go

So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever, I especially am slow
But I realized how I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

Remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning?
And I thought it was strange, you said everything changed
You felt as if you just woke up

And you said
"This is the first day of my life
Glad I didn't die before I met you
Now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy"

So if you want to be with me
With these things there's no telling
We'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides, maybe this time is different
I mean, I really think you like me

Ok I'm a 14 year old girl apparently.

Cause I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE this song!!!

Why is it so damn catchy?





How can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I can't win your losing fight
All the time.

Nor can I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this time.

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how did we get here?
Well, I think I know.

Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of ourselves.

Yeah. Yeah.

How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I know.
I think I know.

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be true.