the soul, the screen, the smoke in between.

Sorry for the lack of communication.

I have been busy.

I’ve been moving into the new place. I stayed there all weekend. It’s sweet!!

It really feels like home there & I’m really enjoying it!!

Umm had to have work done on the car. Cost more than I thought sucks but what can you do right??

For Valentines Day, I did two things worthy of note.

1. I took my valentine Lily to go see Coraline. She loved it times 1000000 and I did too. It’s a cute movie!! This weekend we’re going ice skating. She’s a cutie and deserves to have a lot of fun.

2. I threw away a lot of pictures, notes, letters, cards, toys, books, and some champagne flutes. Anything that is a reminder of Michelle & I, I got rid of. The ring is now at the bottom of the river. I thought it deserved to rest somewhere beautiful. It’s a new time in my life. I don’t need to be held back & all the negative energies are not welcome in my new home. Plus Nick told me to stop being a pussy.....so I took his advice.

What’s next?? Ummm Mario is a piece of shit. He’s a petty, chicken shit smuck.

Next.

I really like my neighbors!! They are the coolest people. Last night Phil & Luca got me to join World of Warcraft!! It’s SOOOO much fun!! It’s cool because Tommy, Phil, Luca & I party up & play. Also, Ashley joined WOW too!! Hella funny!!

I should be done with a new song soon. I have a little writers block but I’ll figure it out.

Now….Enjoy The Twilight Singers – Bonnie Bare. This song was played really loud on repeat Saturday. It made the mood just right!! Like Coach Taylor says…..

…Clear Eyes, Full Hearts. Can’t loose.

Later friends.

-J



there was a rapture, so i can never see you anymore
nightmares believable, walking into sweet oblivion
i'm not saying it's easy, to feel it all nor not at all
when somebody say, lay down your gun
and when you lay it down, get ready to run

situation dire, it's gone away, it's not going away
since you're wasting time again, my friend
on bonnie brae, on bonnie brae

if she's your master, then get down on your knees and beg for more
i'm not saying it's easier, to live your life like her little whore

'cuz when you play with fire, take your fate, it's not going away
situation dire, on bonnie brae
on bonnie brae, on bonnie brae

the soul, the screen, the smoke in between
the rise, the fall, the thrill of...
the first, the last, the sins of the past
the burn, the fade, the skin that you've flayed
come see, the sun, kill everyone
but me, i'm free indubitably

"the most powerful of lights"

"In fearful day, in raging night, with strong hearts full, our souls ignite! When all seems lost in the War of Light, look to the stars, for hope burns bright!"
-- Blue Lantern Corps oath




"At the end of the war with the Sinestro Corps, former Guardians of the Universe Ganthet and Sayd used the emotion of hope to create the first blue power ring, thus creating the Blue Lantern Corps. The first Blue Lantern was shown to be an alien named Saint Walker, who came to the aid of the Green Lanterns after they were ambushed by Atrocitus and the Red Lanterns. The second Blue Lantern was shown to be Warth, an elephant-like creature who was selected by Saint Walker.[34] A blue power ring has the ability to heal wounds, neutralize the corruptive effects of a red power ring and can recharge a green power ring to twice its maximum power level.[28] A blue power ring feeds off the hope of other beings, as shown when Saint Walker and Warth use their rings to reverse the age of a dying sun 8.6 billion years and their rings feed off the hope of the billions of alien beings who witnessed the act. The home planet of the Blue Lanterns and the Blue Power Battery is the planet Odym, a beautiful and diverse planet orbiting the star Polaris. The emotion of hope is described as "the most powerful of lights" by Saint Walker, implying that the Blue Lantern's rings are the most powerful yet."





I think I would be a Blue Lantern.

Feels good don't it??

Ahh....slow days at work....they are sometimes nice.

Tonight more boxing things up & moving.

Looking forward to class tonight, I like being punched in the face. Its weird...but it makes me feel more alive. Makes me feel like...some kind of rush. I rather enjoy it. Tim says it’s a primitive instinct inside men that sometimes needs to be worked.

I put together my “custom” work out plan for tonight. It goes as follows.

1. Warm up: Leg raises forward, back, side to side 30sec each position.
2. Cardio circuit time.
a. Start with 50 low jumping jacks & 100 normal.
b. Bag work (wearing 50lbs weight vest & 5lbs wrist weights):
i. 15 sec all out.
ii. Rest for 5 sec.
iii. 30 sec all out.
iv. Rest for 5 sec.
v. 1 min all out
vi. Repeat x 3
c. Next move to 50lb throwing bag.
i. A low controlled squat, pick up & slam bag down.
ii. After bag has been slammed, sprawl & to knee each side of the body.
iii. This is done for 2 one min intervals (30 sec break in between).
3. Abb, Arms & resistance work
a. Done with a partner. 75 Crunches with a 10lb Medicine ball. Partners stand 3ft back toss’s ball. You catch wile you do the crunch, come down & let the ball touch the ground over you’re head. Crunch up & toss back.
b. 25 Hammer/ 25 slap crunches. Wile crunching up, partner hits your abb.
c. 50 squat’s with 10lbs Medicine ball. Make sure to keep head up & back straight. Bend the knees.
d. 10 pull ups hands inward. Center with chin.
e. 10 pull ups hands facing out. Shoulder with apart.
f. 12 each arm resistance cord. Pull down to hip starting from center chest
g. 15 heal raises.
4. Boxing time.
5. Stretch out the body for 15 mins.

Try this & let me know how you feel after.

Have a good day fuckers.

- j




lead me around
nurse my broken wing
with all the promises
you can never honor
I just dont care enough
to react to vain attempts
sent only to perpetuate
one's selfish little world
you wont see what ive become
youll wait and watch and still
youre only let down
a violent reaction
struggling only to keep myself alive
now here I stand
for nothing no one at all
I lead you down
begging to touch you in the cold
you give me a reason
I will not be the one
through all the nonsense
there is a constant
you wont see what ive become
youll wait and watch and still
youre only let down
cause this feeling
has dawned the face of you
a violent reaction
struggling only to keep myself alive
you wont see what ive become
cause this feeling
has dawned the face of you
a violent reaction
struggling only to keep myself alive

AHH Real Monsters.

Today is slow & wet.

Lame.

Gonna do alot of packing this afternoon/evening.

EXCITING.

Kitchen has been painted....looks super good!!

Lets see.....anything else??

ummm...can't think of anything sooooo take it away Jigga Man.

Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

I feel pretty god damn good lately. Nothing to complain about really.

Good new is I got my new apartment!! FUCK YEAH!!! Time to turn in the 30 day notice & start moving shit!! I’m so ready to get the fuck out of my old place and into the new one!! I’m super excited. I also got a new car. Well….not new but new to me. Thanks Mew for the help!! Been spending time with Scott & Jill. She’s a super fun chick. Lucky bastard!! Been good thou, getting my swagger back. Fuck the past, time to show em all what having the inferno is all about. Fuck whoever/whatever gets in my way. You will be out of it; I’ll make sure of that.

Being true to my moniker, living with this intensity is a blessing and curse. But its time for some good. I’m ready life;

I’ve learned a few things.

I do not need to lie to myself to make it thru a day. I’m stronger than you, stronger than most people around, maybe not in body but heart & mind.

I got you beat.

Let’s see what else?? I have a knee injury that won’t seem to heal. I’m going to have an x ray done. I need to see what the damage is & how to rehab it.

Ummm….what else. Heroes, Friday Night Lights & Battlestart have been badass!! I really enjoy all 3 of them right now. I also just started watching Dead like Me. God damn is this show great!!! I love it.

Big game for the Sharks against Boston tonight, I’m looking forward to watching it. Go team teal!!!

Peace you sick twisted freaks.

-j

Take it away Hova.

This is a personal statement song. Yes it’s like that thank you very much, FUCK YOU very much.



Just because I'm losing
Doesn't mean I'm lost
Doesn't mean I'll stop
Doesn't mean I'm in a cross

Just because I'm hurting
Doesn't mean I'm hurt
Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve
No better and no worse

I just got lost
Every river that I've tried to cross
And every door I ever tried was locked
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

You might be a big fish
In a little pond
Doesn't mean you've won
'Cause along may come
A bigger one

And you'll be lost
Every river that you try to cross
Every gun you ever held went off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the firing stops
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off
Ooh-Oh, And I'm just waiting till the shine wears off...

.......puff.....

....i hate music sometimes.

like right now.....

Drain the Amnesty.

Man glad last week is over.

On to hopefully a better one.

Good Super bowl yesterday & the Office right after was fucking FUNNY!!! The fucking cat falling out of the vent is classic.

Been doing pretty well lately. Just remembering to breathe and have fun.

The only thing is this anger likes to rear its ugly head at weird times lately. I’m struggling not to bite everyone’s head off cause I want to. I think a lot of it has to do with new emotions (FYI not about any of you so fuck you. Lol jk.) I’m working thru. New situations, people, ECT. I just need to breathe & keep up with the training. The knee is feeling a lot better so I can start running again. Well got to consult the trainer first.

It should be fine. Better be fine.

On to the music…..I m going with two songs cause….well …I can.

Norma Jean – Amnesty Please



The Distillers - Drain the Blood