Let The Dominoes Fall.

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Hello,

Start of the NHL season is today!! Fuck man….took way to long it feels like!! I’m excited for this season and all the change is for the better I think!!

I’m still plugging away at school. Ordered a new book to learn from, one of my teachers recommended it to me. Challenging but anything that’s worth something in life is challenging to obtain.

Work is work…still slow.

Moving again….soon I think. My options are as follows.

1. Nick and Nicole’s
2. A cottage my mom’s friend is renting in Berkeley (I want this one).
3. Stay at my apt.

All of these options are going to be paid for by financial aid and THANK god for that.

I’ve been really lonely lately. Don’t know why…I attribute it to the new moon and changing of the season. That’s what I think but alas….HARDEN THE FUCK UP MORALES!!

My friend Mew had her baby!! I’m very excited and happy for her. I guess there were some complications. Scared me to death truth be told. Mew’s been trough a lot in the 7 years I’ve know her and she deserves good things!! I just talked we her and things sound like they are getting better. I’m very glad to hear this.

I noticed I’m overly distant with a lot of my friends and people I love. Sadly that I feel has had a negative effect on those relationships. I will now work very hard to change and rectify them. Sometimes getting lost in my own head isn’t a good thing.

Back to crunch time.

Stay safe.

-J

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And I'm proud of me!!

Hello cyber world.

I got my GED!! WOOOOHOOOO!!! I'm happy with myself.

Some tough decisions needed to made and I made them.

I’m now a FULL time college student. Well starting December 3rd that is. A really new, wild & crazy chapter in my life is starting and I ready to face it with open arms.

I hope you are all doing well and being safe!!

- Johnny

Hayley Williams – Teenagers

Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

8th anniversary of 9/11. Thank you to all the heroes who live, lost there lives & there families. You all have really shown what's it is to be an American & I thank you for that. You remind me that life is hard....Harden the fuck up and live it!!

To the bastards to did this. I don't forgive you but hope that you find peace....with that said doesn’t mean I don't want you dead. Cause I do. And that peace you find…I hope it’s in hell.

BTW 8 years have passed. That's 2,920 days. There hasn't been a day for every life lost on 9/11/2001.

GOD BLESS ALL THE FALLEN ON 9/11/2001!!





Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving life in the dark
Climbing higher through the fire
Time was running out
Never knowing you weren't going to be coming down alive

But you still came back for me
You were strong and you believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe

Be strong believe

Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day
Never fearing only hearing voices calling out
Let it all go the life that you know
Just to bring them down alive

And you still came back for me
You were strong and you've believed

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe
[radio voice]
again today,
we take into our hearts and mind
Those who perished on this site one year ago
and also,
those who came to toil in the rubble
To bring order out of chaos,
to help us make sense of Our despair

Wanna hold my wife when I get home
Wanna tell the kids they'll never know
How much I love to see them smile
Wanna make a change right here right now
Wanna live a life like you somehow
Wanna make your sacrifice worthwhile

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe
(background voice):Think about the love inside the strength of heart
Think about the heroes saving lives in the dark

Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Everything is gonna be alright
Be strong believe
(background voice):Think about the chance I never had to say
Thank you for giving up your life that day

(radio voice): The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here.

Yeah fuck you too!!

I did it!! I'm on fire (alive?)!!

Howdy,

Its hard to write, I feel horrible and trying not to lose too much energy. I'm suffering from a summer cold/flu.

Last Thursday's meeting went GREAT!! I'm an official college student!! My start date is in October and I'm really excited!! A lot is going to change but it's all for the better. NO RETREATS, NO REGRETS!! I’m going to get that tattooed on my hands.

Ok next is part one of GED tonight. I’m worn out and tired but I gotta battle thru. Perseverance is the name of the game. I’m going to kick that test’s ass…sick or not sick.

I’m out people.

- Johnny Morales.

The Gaslight Anthem - I'm on fire (live)

Clear eyes, full hearts, CAN’T LOSE!!

Today is my final meeting for college; I’m officially applying to go to Ex'Pression. I have my sit down with the dean and the Admission's board this afternoon. I’m also meeting them for my scholarship, I’m going to get it and my schooling will be covered!! Not too bad for a high school drop out, don’t you think?

Next week is the GED test and I will kick its fracking ass!! I have been hitting the books hard! So watch out!!

To my friends reading (if anyone ever dose); you have all supported me so MUCH over the past year and I’m SOOO grateful for you all!! It’s good to know my true friends from the snakes in the grass. You all know I hate snakes and would rather choose spending my life alone than surround myself with fakes. I’ve spent too much of my life over the past 3 years with the fakes, I’m done. You are my family and I love you all. From the bottom of my heart, Thank you and I will not let any of you down. I will not let myself down.

RED FUCKING DRAGONS!!

I’m college bound fuckers!!!

-John Morales

RED DRAGON!

this is going to be a BIG week for my future. All I got to say is HELLO FUTURE ME!!!

You can blame it all on me, Terry, it don't matter to me now

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I’m getting pretty burnt out on work lately, I just wanna start school. Hell I’m tempted to move out of my apt and move in with Nick & Nicole. Then I could got to school full time. Work a side job for rent n such. I’m ready for the change, it’s needed really. Proof that life still exsi

I stopped taking my meds. Its been about a month now. I’m doing really well with out them, No complaints. Only thing is I’m tired all the time lol. But I started working out hard core again. Back to the grind, was supposed to have my first fight this month. But with all of the ER visits, I thought it would be best to hold off on it. :(

Sharon and I haven’t talked in about 2 months now. Surprised?? I am…it’s sad to me. Make’s me feel like a not so wonderful son.

I know this lovely young lady…she’s pretty cool, funny and witty. Pretty too. A vast improvement in my taste’s. Oi to me.

I’m out.

Take care.

Inferno.

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Brian Fallon - Backstreets - Bruce Springsteen Cover

GO WINGS!!

Never thought I would say that...but FUCKIN DESTROY THE PENS!!!

Sidney Crosby is acting like a classless player. It's annoying that the NHL allows him to get away with SOO damn much. It's not enough that he jumps players, cry's about the way people celebrate goals and dive his way around the ice but to take cheap shops at players at the end of games??

Come on and show some class. Supposed to be a role model for kids and the poster boy of the NHL. Bring in more fair weather fans.

Don't get me wrong, he's a great hockey player. Great on ice vision, battles and shows some heart.

If the Sharks fail (over and over), I want the cup staying in the West. As this say "this is how the west was won!"

Expect more awesome hockey!! Both teams played really well but the better will win. I will write a new article on Bleachreport.com about tonight's game and the 2nd coming of god (Sid the Kid).

Keep your feet on the ground.

- J.J.M.

the sins of the past!

Well, I wonder which song they're gonna play when we go. I hope it's something quiet and minor and peaceful and slow.

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Hello; What I’m writing today…is hard and painful to write about. But I'm ready to write it. Cause I'm a writer.

Writing cause it’s going to be a tuff birthday this year. Some of you know that a friend of mine died this time last year. Well on May 25th, my brother, Erin (13) and I found Tyler and Russ. The accident had already happened and Russell was in bad shape (he was injury free). Tyler passed away.

It’s very odd to me to think back to a year ago, so much was different. I remember the drive home from Gerlach, the morning after the accident. I haven’t really shared too many details about this part of what happened to anyone just…because I wanted them to be my moments. I will never forget, 8:45 am & I’m running off 1hr sleep (I wouldn’t call it real sleep), coffee & cigarettes. I’m half having panic attacks and the other half just wants’ to be with the people I loved at the time. I driving and there’s nothing in sight but Nevada desert & rain clouds coming in the distance. At this one moment I had no cell reception, no way of communicating with the outside world at all. This moment I needed to pull over, I was starting to get really emotional. I was thinking about what just happened; Tyler died 4 hours ago. I just wanted to hold Lily & kiss her and the feelings were the same for some other person. I just wanted to be with them; at this moment I was so scared. I needed them to tell me I wasn’t gone, I didn’t lose them & they didn’t lose me. I was listening to Paramore at the time & Hallelujah just came on. This song will never leave this memory. I got out of my car on the side of the road and broke down. I started punching the side of my car….I don’t know why really. I was so scared, angry and still in shock. Than all for some reason I notice the line “this time I’m not giving up, I’m going to make this last forever”. These lyrics came out of know where and cut threw me like a hot knife.

The next 6 hours we’re spent driving, pulling over (due to not being in the perfect driving condition), just hearing the sounds, smelling the smell & replaying the events from just a few hours before.

I’m not going to begin to say I understand what happened, why this kind of person was taken so young but my brother’s friend said it best “sometimes crazy young guys die”. And that’s what happened.

I’m accepting of this a lot more today. I only hope that Tyler knows that I’m sorry for not acting, for not getting out of that bunk and maybe doing something that may have…help, eased, or simply supported him. I’m sorry Tyler; I owed the kindness and friendship you showed me in the short amount of time we spent together a lot more than that. I know you understand & I know you know the penance I bear from it. You know the chains I’m going to be feeling the most of my life.

I was never your best friend. I didn’t know you too long.

I really wish I could have been.

So on Monday May 25th, I will be raising a glass to you my friend. I hope you will be there to share it with me.



Keep you’re feet on the ground friends.

-John J Morales.

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The Gaslight Anthem – The 59 Sound. Just listen and you will know why this song is here.

ER...not again??

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Monday was spent in the ER. This time I had a really bad asthma attack and turns out I have acute bronchitis. The doctor said it was turning into Pneumonia. SCARY x 10!!! I haven’t had something like this happen for a VERY long time. Last time when I was 8ish?? Driving myself there sucked and was scary too!!

But I'm doing a lil better. I can breathe easer and talk again. I'm on a bunch of steroids. lol.

News on the college front. $12,000 dollars of my tuition is covered!! WOWZERS!! That’s a lot!! Now to come up with the rest…not to worried….I have a lot of scholarships to apply for.

It’s gonna happen; I’m the next Rudy.

Back to the grind.

If I die....some of you are in my will. Enjoy the thing you get fuckers. :)

The Inferno.

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Phoenix - Girlfriend

Cause now I know it's all that I wanted.

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To all,

Studying for GED; test is in a month. I got to make it count and score high! Excited, my pal’s Phil, Luca, Ashley, Jaimee and my brother said they are all proud of me!! Thanks guys and gals it means a lot. I’m proud of me; no male figure taught me how to be. I learned on my own. I’m new and improved.

Next are the art classes. Staring them too. EXCITED!!! Got a drafting table for my bday.

New tattoo soon, I’ll put a photo. Going to go see my brother, going to drink to a fallen friend.

-Inferno

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Green Day- Macy's Day Parade

The good, the bad and ur ugly.

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A quick one for you.

The Good: I’m getting accepted to Expression Center for New Media. Animation & Visual Affects here I come.

The Bad: I got stabbed in the shin…..yes with a knife. 1.5 inch deep wound. Sucks and is very painful. I’m doing ok. It was a freak accident and my fault. If I see you and care enough to tell you the details...then I will. If not. Well I was attacked by a Pit Viper.

Later people; Be Safe,

Inferno.

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Dizzy yet?

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Hello.

I haven’t written much lately. Why?

Nothing to write about.

Now? Something to write about.

1. Getting diploma in 2 weeks (maybe a lil longer but not my much).
2. I’m applying to Ex’pression for New Media. I should be starting in the fall.
3. I love life.

Last blog for a wile.

Love you all. Be safe.

-The Inferno.

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Hey you, turn this up loud, dance and smile. Please cause this is the very last time.




You close your eyes and kiss your hand, then you blow it
But it isn't meant for me… and I notice
If the choice was ours alone
Then why did we both choose letting go?
Does it end like this?

Time never had a chance to heal your heart
Just a number always counting down to a new start
If you always knew the truth
Then the world would spin around you
Are you dizzy yet?

(Chorus)
Respectfully, some honesty I'm a new calling out
Do you hear this conversation we talk about?
Back away to the safety of a quiet house
If there's a half a chance in this moment, when your eyes meet mine, we show it off

(Verse 2)
All talk not a lot to think we were living dreams
Shame never crept close to our naked feet
If there's something left to lose
Then don't let me wear out my shoes
I'm still walking

I tried, but it rang and rang, I called all night
On a pay phone, remember those from another life?
If everything I meant to you,
You can lick and seal then fold in two then I've been so blind

(Chorus)
Respectfully, some honesty I'm asking now
Do you hear the conversation we talk about?
Back away to safety of a quiet house
If there's half a chance in this moment
When your eyes meet mine, we show it off

(Bridge)
(Oh, Oh) take it all back take the first, your last, your only
(Oh, Oh) take it all back take it all back everything you showed me
(Oh, Oh) this must be how it feels when the feeling goes (Ooh)

I told you as I hovered I'd never felt this way
You said: "I had the shot that stops my clock, baby it's ok"
You said you'd never have regrets
Jesus! Is there someone yet who got that wish?
Did you get yours? Babe?

(Chorus)
Respectfully, some honesty I'm asking now
Do you hear the conversation we talk around?
Back away to the safety of a quiet house
If there's half a chance in this moment...
When your eyes meet mine we show it off.

speaks for itself.

Death to cowards, traitors, and empty words
To those adorned with the touch of rose petals
And the blessed gift of forgetfulness
For these are your years and days to outshine
Push on and soar higher
This is your memory
Your everything and the inbetween
Push on and soar higher

like a blank post it note.

Hi.

I've been feeling very..I dont know the correct word's to express it. I just know it's different.

I dont know if I like it.

Sometimes I just wish something bigger would happen. Something...I can't explain it.

Why try then?

I just need to go work out...go get it out of me. I won 12 free skate lessions!! Hopefully this time next year I will be on a minor leauge team. Exciting!!

Later.

-J

Song of the day - Killers - All these things that I've done.

just one of those day.

I felt for sure last night
That once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
I'm still driving away
And I'm sorry every day
I won't always love these selfish things
I won't always live...
Not stopping...

It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you

You'll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
I'm here I'm now I'm ready
Holding on tight
Don't give away the end
The one thing that stays mine

Amazing still it seems
I'll be 23
I won't always love what I'll never have
I won't always live in my regrets